Fifty Shades of Grey

I just finished "Fifty Shades of Grey" today & this is my make-believe cast of beautiful people.

The reason why I'm lucky.

My best friend & now: boyfriend. 
as of June 4th

Remember this Moment

 Leyla

There's so much I would love to say about Leyla, but the first thought that comes to mind is her loyalty and honesty. She's beautiful inside and out. She can do anything she sets her mind to. Leyla works hard, perseveres and never gives up hope. She pushed me in high school to never give up and was one of my best friends. Her heart of gold and hilarious sense of humor always kept me smiling. She's going to make a difference in this world. I'm sure of it.

Deuteronomy 31:6 Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the LORD your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.”

 Nathan

We definitely had our struggles. Both of us didn't believe that we would even make it through high school. We would sit in the back of praise band and share our secrets, dreams and stories. I cherish this boy and his friendship more than anything. I know that I can come to Nate about anything and he would never judge me. He has strength. It's something I really admire. I don't think he gives himself enough credit. He has accomplished so much and has come so far. His faith is so unique and powerful. I love it. I love to hear his thoughts about certain topics in the Bible and where he stands. He's a great guy. I don't know how I would've graduated from high school last year without him by my side. I'm beyond thankful. Now, we're both going to be attending the same college and I couldn't be more excited. I pray our friendship will continue to grow stronger. Nate is the best friend a girl could ever ask for.

Isaiah 41:10  Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you,  I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

 Allison

At first, we didn't agree on anything. We would fight over nothing that held importance. Looking back, it makes me laugh because we could've spent all that time being friends. We quickly developed a friendship despite our differences. Allison is beautiful. God has blessed her with so many talents. She's a leader, a dancer, so intelligent and a great  friend to her three best friends- Jennifer, Becca and Shannon. Her loyalty to them and her family really shines. When she loves, she loves with her whole heart. I know for a fact that she loves the Lord. I can see it when she dances as strange as that sounds. I can see it when she babysits. She's a lover and will fight for what she loves. Allie will go far in life because of this. She truly knows how to love and I pray Allison, that this will never change.
 I love you always.

1 John 4:7-8  Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God.  Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love.

 Kristen

When I think of Kristen- the first word that pops into my brain is: Successful. Why? Because that is what she is. Kristen was a cheerleader, girlfriend, best friend of many, on yearbook, on dance team, beta club, etc. Kristen did it all and never lost sight of what was important- The Lord. She continued to be loyal to her family and her God. I admire that the most about her. She always has time for the people she loves and makes time, regardless of her busy schedule. She's so beautiful and has a big heart. I have so many memories with her that I will never forget. She was one of my best friends. One of my cheerleaders in life to keep going. I will never forget her and am so proud of her for heading to U of M. She'll be successful there too. I know it.

1 Corinthians 10:13  No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.

I love all of you. Always live & love fearlessly.

Wonderstruck.

"Love is a beautiful word, and shouldn't be feared. I would never want ya to second guess ever saying it."

My response?


"I've said it a lot, but I don't regret saying it because at the time that was something I felt strongly & that's something no one can take away from me. People deserve to hear that they're loved. I think some people don't hear it enough."

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This leads me to write what I look for in a man.

"Boys want to win your heart. Men want to treasure it." -Courageous

Someone who is compassionate.
-He loves his own family & learns to love mine.

Someone who is passionate.
-He has goals, plans & a future is willing to share them with me.

Someone who is faithful.
-He makes me feel like I'm the only girl in the world.

Someone who is caring.
-He is willing to take care of me when I'm sick & wipe my tears when I'm sad.

Someone who is a lover & a fighter.
-He fights for what he loves.

Someone who is funny.
-Once he makes me laugh, he is capable of owning my heart.

Someone who is willing to make sacrifices.
-He is willing to adjust and put up with my crazy life, just as I would for him.

Someone who is giving.
-He loves with 110% of his heart. It takes two to make a relationship work.

Someone who is strong.
-He catches me when I fall.

Someone who is willing to go to church with me.
-My faith is a big part of my life. It's something I can't give up or change.

Someone who is willing to go to crazy places & vacations with me.
-He is willing to attend Black Friday Shopping in Wisconsin or Disneyworld with my family.

Someone who is aware that the little things mean the most.
-He texts me, surprises me, and makes sure I know that I am thought about.

Someone who is patient.
-He takes his time with me. He is willing to wait and listen.

Someone who isn't trying to take advantage of me.
-My virginity is not something that I'm just throwing away.

Someone who gives advice and is encouraging.
-In a relationship, we must build each other up every day.

Someone who is sassy.

-He is willing to be sarcastic and maybe, sometimes rude (in a playful manner).

Someone who is honest.
-If he isn't honest, he isn't worth it.

Someone who is respectful.
-He respects me, his mother, his elders, and most importantly- my father.
If you want to one day ask for my hand in marriage, my daddy is the one you're asking first.

Someone who is fun.
-He is adventurous, willing to go out to Cedar Point, haunted houses, concerts & other various activities.

Someone who is determined.
-He is a hard worker in all he does.

Someone who has dreams.
-He shares his dreams with me & allows me to help in whatever way that I can.

Someone who enjoys public display of affection.
-He wants the world to know I'm his girl and isn't afraid of showing it. Anywhere.

Someone who is calm.
-He can relax me when I'm stressing out over nothing.

Someone who never gives up.
-When we get in a fight, he wants to fix it- not get even.

Someone who can secretly be five sometimes.
-Nothing is hotter than a boy who will color or watch Disney movies with me.

Someone who is a leader.
-He is admired and a good person.

Someone who has an incredible personality.
-He is never boring and shines in everything he does.

Someone who is fearless & willing to love me no matter what it takes.
-Together, we can conquer the world.

Someone who looks like Zac Efron.

Ladybug!

My dream husband.. Go ahead, judge me.

Logan Thibault from "The Lucky One"

Flynn Rider from "Tangled"

 
Will Blakelee from "The Last Song"

Jake Perry from "Sweet Home Alabama"

Don't Stop Believing

Sometimes I think I take life too seriously and other days, I don't take life serious enough. I understand that I am young and have plenty of years ahead of me, but I don't want to miss an opportunity.

Lately, I've been scared of falling in love. I don't want to waste time with the wrong person. I don't want to give all I've got to find it all thrown away. I understand that all guys aren't the same, but we'll see if someone can prove that to me and sweep me off my feet.

I'm honestly not looking for a relationship right now or willing to settle down. If someone came along and changed everything, maybe- but right now, I'm just doing me.

I did awesome my first semester of college then fell apart during my second semester. I'm not only embarrassed of myself, but disappointed. I made a promise to myself to focus on what's important. I could care less in high school and I never want to gain that mentality ever again, especially now that I'm in college.

Besides gaining focus of what is important, I've recognized things that make me really happy..

• Conversations with Rob
  -He understands me better than most. I can always count on him and love hearing his opinion.
• Glee!
  -It's my new addiction. I mean c'mon.. Hello Finn & Noah! I secretly wish my life was a musical.
• Slurpees
  -I've been drinking at least two a day with my official diagnosis of bronchitis.
• Notes on my receipts when I waitress
  -It's encouraging. It's the little things that make me happy.
• Neon shorts
  -Enough said.
• All my new friends at Scramblers
  -Regardless of random kitchen melt-downs, we are a family and family sticks together.
• The colors: purple & blue
  -I'm obsessed with them! They're cool colors and I just enjoy them. Don't judge me! :)
• Red Hair
  -I'm sticking with it this time. I don't know why I even changed it.
• Blue Eyes
  -I'm a sucker for boys with blue eyes.
• Second Chances
  -You individuals know who you are. Please don't make me regret it!
• Sam & Evan
  -Ev left for the Army and Sam has been his biggest fan. I want a love like theirs.
• Gummy Worms
  -My brother just bought me some & I'm stuffing my face. Get over it.
  
  Spring classes, Kalahari, The Avengers, Alexa's play and the Mother/Daughter banquet are all this month!

Let's see what God has in store for me this month.. let's hope for lots of flowers! ;)