Felt Good on My Lips

 Probably one of my favorite nights of summer..

I mean honestly, who wouldn't love to see these two sexy men?

I'll be the greatest fan of your life.

This handsome gentleman makes me the happiest girl on earth.
The End.

Wonderstruck.

"Love is a beautiful word, and shouldn't be feared. I would never want ya to second guess ever saying it."

My response?


"I've said it a lot, but I don't regret saying it because at the time that was something I felt strongly & that's something no one can take away from me. People deserve to hear that they're loved. I think some people don't hear it enough."

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This leads me to write what I look for in a man.

"Boys want to win your heart. Men want to treasure it." -Courageous

Someone who is compassionate.
-He loves his own family & learns to love mine.

Someone who is passionate.
-He has goals, plans & a future is willing to share them with me.

Someone who is faithful.
-He makes me feel like I'm the only girl in the world.

Someone who is caring.
-He is willing to take care of me when I'm sick & wipe my tears when I'm sad.

Someone who is a lover & a fighter.
-He fights for what he loves.

Someone who is funny.
-Once he makes me laugh, he is capable of owning my heart.

Someone who is willing to make sacrifices.
-He is willing to adjust and put up with my crazy life, just as I would for him.

Someone who is giving.
-He loves with 110% of his heart. It takes two to make a relationship work.

Someone who is strong.
-He catches me when I fall.

Someone who is willing to go to church with me.
-My faith is a big part of my life. It's something I can't give up or change.

Someone who is willing to go to crazy places & vacations with me.
-He is willing to attend Black Friday Shopping in Wisconsin or Disneyworld with my family.

Someone who is aware that the little things mean the most.
-He texts me, surprises me, and makes sure I know that I am thought about.

Someone who is patient.
-He takes his time with me. He is willing to wait and listen.

Someone who isn't trying to take advantage of me.
-My virginity is not something that I'm just throwing away.

Someone who gives advice and is encouraging.
-In a relationship, we must build each other up every day.

Someone who is sassy.

-He is willing to be sarcastic and maybe, sometimes rude (in a playful manner).

Someone who is honest.
-If he isn't honest, he isn't worth it.

Someone who is respectful.
-He respects me, his mother, his elders, and most importantly- my father.
If you want to one day ask for my hand in marriage, my daddy is the one you're asking first.

Someone who is fun.
-He is adventurous, willing to go out to Cedar Point, haunted houses, concerts & other various activities.

Someone who is determined.
-He is a hard worker in all he does.

Someone who has dreams.
-He shares his dreams with me & allows me to help in whatever way that I can.

Someone who enjoys public display of affection.
-He wants the world to know I'm his girl and isn't afraid of showing it. Anywhere.

Someone who is calm.
-He can relax me when I'm stressing out over nothing.

Someone who never gives up.
-When we get in a fight, he wants to fix it- not get even.

Someone who can secretly be five sometimes.
-Nothing is hotter than a boy who will color or watch Disney movies with me.

Someone who is a leader.
-He is admired and a good person.

Someone who has an incredible personality.
-He is never boring and shines in everything he does.

Someone who is fearless & willing to love me no matter what it takes.
-Together, we can conquer the world.

Someone who looks like Zac Efron.

My dream husband.. Go ahead, judge me.

Logan Thibault from "The Lucky One"

Flynn Rider from "Tangled"

 
Will Blakelee from "The Last Song"

Jake Perry from "Sweet Home Alabama"

Don't Stop Believing

Sometimes I think I take life too seriously and other days, I don't take life serious enough. I understand that I am young and have plenty of years ahead of me, but I don't want to miss an opportunity.

Lately, I've been scared of falling in love. I don't want to waste time with the wrong person. I don't want to give all I've got to find it all thrown away. I understand that all guys aren't the same, but we'll see if someone can prove that to me and sweep me off my feet.

I'm honestly not looking for a relationship right now or willing to settle down. If someone came along and changed everything, maybe- but right now, I'm just doing me.

I did awesome my first semester of college then fell apart during my second semester. I'm not only embarrassed of myself, but disappointed. I made a promise to myself to focus on what's important. I could care less in high school and I never want to gain that mentality ever again, especially now that I'm in college.

Besides gaining focus of what is important, I've recognized things that make me really happy..

• Conversations with Rob
  -He understands me better than most. I can always count on him and love hearing his opinion.
• Glee!
  -It's my new addiction. I mean c'mon.. Hello Finn & Noah! I secretly wish my life was a musical.
• Slurpees
  -I've been drinking at least two a day with my official diagnosis of bronchitis.
• Notes on my receipts when I waitress
  -It's encouraging. It's the little things that make me happy.
• Neon shorts
  -Enough said.
• All my new friends at Scramblers
  -Regardless of random kitchen melt-downs, we are a family and family sticks together.
• The colors: purple & blue
  -I'm obsessed with them! They're cool colors and I just enjoy them. Don't judge me! :)
• Red Hair
  -I'm sticking with it this time. I don't know why I even changed it.
• Blue Eyes
  -I'm a sucker for boys with blue eyes.
• Second Chances
  -You individuals know who you are. Please don't make me regret it!
• Sam & Evan
  -Ev left for the Army and Sam has been his biggest fan. I want a love like theirs.
• Gummy Worms
  -My brother just bought me some & I'm stuffing my face. Get over it.
  
  Spring classes, Kalahari, The Avengers, Alexa's play and the Mother/Daughter banquet are all this month!

Let's see what God has in store for me this month.. let's hope for lots of flowers! ;)

If I could I relive those days.

I got a message today from an old friend who has known me since I was fourteen years old. There is no better feeling then knowing someone cares, that someone is looking out for you, watching you grow. It's a beautiful feeling.

Time flies.

Would you catch a couple thousand fireflies &put them in a lamp to light my world?

Seriously... I'm sitting here, sweating. It is so beautiful, yet so incredibly hot outside! I bought a new sundress today to celebrate this kind of weather. I'm such a summer girl. I've got "The Band Perry" playing and will be cleaning my room shortly. That's what spring is known for, right? Cleaning?

I'm single.
I've been working and babysitting.
I signed up for three spring classes.
I told my parents about my two tattoos.
I made my first month's payment on my car.
I had my blood drawn.
I've been working out.
I've been eating healthier.
I switched work hours so I can go to church on Sunday.

I've been cleaning out my life, basically and it's a beautiful thing..

P.S.
Let's not forget: 7 days until The Hunger Games!

It doesn't have to be Thanksgiving to be thankful.

I know I should be working on my project right now, but I just have so much that I am incredibly happy & thankful for. I literally cannot stop smiling and singing. I can my happiness glowing on my skin like a nice summer tan.

I just love my life & the people in it, I really do.

My reasons:

J Squared ; my favorite duo. I remember starting work, thinking- Wowzers! They really hate each other & looking now, I do not know if I could find another friendship that cares for each other so much like they do. It's awesome. I love them. I know that if I ever needed them, they'd be there. If I needed to cry my eyes out, Jaime would probably laugh then hug me while Jazz punches her in the face.. it's all good. ;) They're both beautiful girls with beautiful hearts & I'm blessed to have them in my life.

Brianna's 21st birthday ; is coming up & I've been having a blast getting shenanigans ready for that with my brother (her boyfriend). She deserves a great day (or week) for her birthday and we're gonna give it to her.

Scoring a 203 out of 200 on my final exam? I think that's enough said right there!

My family ; my backbone. We've gone through a lot recently and I truly couldn't be more thankful than I am to have them in my life. God gave me the best parents I could ever ask for and He knew that I needed Drew & Ryan to keep me inline. They're the reason I have the biggest heart.

My job ; my second home. As much drama goes down there, we have each other at the end of the day. I have made so many relationships there with people and customers- I am beyond blessed with such a great job that I can be myself & be accepted- for who I am, what I believe and what I do. They work with me, keep me level headed & always make me laugh.. sometimes even pee.

Ashley, Brianna & Sam ; my three best friends. I cannot go a day without talking to all three of them. I don't even know what I'd do without any of them in my life. All three are so different, but so alike. So beautiful & unique! I am so thankful they put up with me and continue to love me every day.

Christmas Shopping ; because I am a big time giver. I spoil the crap out of my lovelies >:)

&&

Jesus Christ ; my reason for every breath I take & the the true reason to celebrate Christmas.

Wonderful Things

I was thinking about a bunch of wonderful things
that I think need recognition. :)

-Panda Express
Best Chinese food of my life!

-Purple
My new favorite color. :)

-Sunflowers
My new favorite flower- besides crazy, colored daisies!

-Crunch Wrap
One of Taco Bell's classics.

-Chicken Fries
One of Burger King's classics.

-Sprite Slurpees
Limited edition at 711! I could totally drink one right now.

-Colbie Caillat
I've been listening to all her albums, non-stop. All day, every day!

-Crackle
The only nail polish that deserves recognition.

-Harry Potter books
I've been reading them like an addiction.

-The Lucky One
Let's be honest, everyone loves Zac Efron's hot face.... and body!

-Khole Kardashian's Vocabulary
It just completely cracks me up! I can't handle it. :)

-Ellen DeGeneres
She's an awesome lady!
I was so excited to see her downtown for a good cause.

-Polar Bears
Who doesn't LOVE a white, cuddly, fluffy bear?!

-Christmas Shopping
I love buying things for other people, seriously.
It makes me happy to see people happy!

This is for Great Grandma, Jess, Jeff, & Timmy.

All the empty disappears.
I remember why I'm here.
Just surrender and believe.
I fall down on my knees.

Oh, hello world..

Life is so fragile & there's so much beauty in everything,
but not everyone has the courage to open their eyes.
Life is beautiful, even when it rains.

You find a way to replace my pain with love.

I think it must be the rain falling on my rooftop, puddles in the pavement, splashes from the tires of cars driving by, that has made me want to sit down, reflect on my life & talk to God.

This time, last year, I was sitting in Psychology class. It was my senior year and first year of not having my boyfriend, Tommy, at school with me. I was nervous about it, but God gave me the most beautiful, three friends a girl could ever ask for- Chelsea, Becca and Kristen. The times that I share with them are probably all in my top ten favorite high school memories.

The year before that, I was a junior- figuring out who I was and supporting my boyfriend, Tommy, as he conquered his senior year of high school. It was probably my hardest year. I lost my best friend the summer after Junior year. It destroyed me. My heart was in pieces on the hospital floor, saying bye to his handsome face. I had Melissa & Tommy though, who loved me- even when it was hard.

2 years ago, I was a sophomore. I was struggling with who I was at my old school. I couldn't figure out why I was at school. I didn't care about anything. I had Timmy by my side at school and that's all that really mattered to me besides barely passing my classes. I had a boyfriend, Austin, who I faced some struggles with in my life. The struggles weren't his fault. They were just challenges thrown my way that I had to face or runaway from. I kept choosing to run. I kept running and running until I ran into Tommy- who changed it all.

Today, I'm a high school graduate & freshman in college- living my life fearlessly. I may not have the same people in my life that I did in the past, but I am thankful for every memory that I've had with them. God has a way with situations. They're handcrafted and beautifully made. He has all the details painted out. I have found where I belong.

My life & feelings in pictures.

Everyone has their own definition of fearless. I think fearless is living life without those doubts, fears and negative thoughts holding you back. I think fearless is making someone realize how special they are even though they end up only being in your life for a short period of time. I think fearless is leaning in for a kiss despite what people say about that person. Fearless is finding your classes on the first day of college, even though you can't find a parking spot. Fearless is changing your life around for the better even if it means leaving certain people behind. Fearless is letting go of people who hurt you, despite wanting them in your life. Fearless is getting your blood drawn in hopes of getting better. Fearless is falling in love with someone & not judging them based on past relationships. I want to continue to live fearlessly.

Happy 21st Birthday, Ash!

When I say "I won't tell anyone",
my best friend- Ashley, doesn't count.

I've got whatever it is.

I can officially say that I am a full-time college student!
The past two days have been the best due to so many various reasons..

-"Stomping the yard"
-Dropping off a slurpee in the middle of the night
-Picking up hours like crazy
-Looking at condos & appts
-Heart to heart conversations
-Meeting new faces
-Meeting college requirements through testing
-Finishing Highschool, for good- even though I already graduated, haha
-My brother, just being awesome & my best friend
-Pretty Little Liars & Teen Mom tonight

:)

Best friend's 21st birthday this Friday! Yay!

It's not how many times you've been knocked down.

I have a lot happening these next couple of months and I am more than excited for this new chapter in my life. I'm signed up for college, getting a place of my own, changing up my own look, getting a car, working part-time and taking every day, one step at a time. I am so incredibly happy and so outrageously blessed.

It's how many times you get back up. :)

Just because I'm happy.

I wouldn't want to be anybody else! :)

Oh, keep me like a secret. I won't let you down.

I'm incredibly happy.

I've been working more hours, babysitting my favorite kids, spending time with my girlfriends like crazy, falling for this incredible boy who makes me laugh till I cry, writing songs, painted the toes- robin's egg blue, been growing closer with my brother, hanging out with my mother and I got my lip pierced. :) I'm so blessed beyond belief! It's so great. I can't even put my thoughts into words!

Katy Perry = Graduation Present from Bri! Love her.