You find a way to replace my pain with love.

I think it must be the rain falling on my rooftop, puddles in the pavement, splashes from the tires of cars driving by, that has made me want to sit down, reflect on my life & talk to God.

This time, last year, I was sitting in Psychology class. It was my senior year and first year of not having my boyfriend, Tommy, at school with me. I was nervous about it, but God gave me the most beautiful, three friends a girl could ever ask for- Chelsea, Becca and Kristen. The times that I share with them are probably all in my top ten favorite high school memories.

The year before that, I was a junior- figuring out who I was and supporting my boyfriend, Tommy, as he conquered his senior year of high school. It was probably my hardest year. I lost my best friend the summer after Junior year. It destroyed me. My heart was in pieces on the hospital floor, saying bye to his handsome face. I had Melissa & Tommy though, who loved me- even when it was hard.

2 years ago, I was a sophomore. I was struggling with who I was at my old school. I couldn't figure out why I was at school. I didn't care about anything. I had Timmy by my side at school and that's all that really mattered to me besides barely passing my classes. I had a boyfriend, Austin, who I faced some struggles with in my life. The struggles weren't his fault. They were just challenges thrown my way that I had to face or runaway from. I kept choosing to run. I kept running and running until I ran into Tommy- who changed it all.

Today, I'm a high school graduate & freshman in college- living my life fearlessly. I may not have the same people in my life that I did in the past, but I am thankful for every memory that I've had with them. God has a way with situations. They're handcrafted and beautifully made. He has all the details painted out. I have found where I belong.

My life & feelings in pictures.

Everyone has their own definition of fearless. I think fearless is living life without those doubts, fears and negative thoughts holding you back. I think fearless is making someone realize how special they are even though they end up only being in your life for a short period of time. I think fearless is leaning in for a kiss despite what people say about that person. Fearless is finding your classes on the first day of college, even though you can't find a parking spot. Fearless is changing your life around for the better even if it means leaving certain people behind. Fearless is letting go of people who hurt you, despite wanting them in your life. Fearless is getting your blood drawn in hopes of getting better. Fearless is falling in love with someone & not judging them based on past relationships. I want to continue to live fearlessly.