It was perfect, I never will forget.

I'm really in love with my life this year & I cannot wait for what the next year holds..



Looking back, I see there was the struggles- I lost my Grandpa in January. Even though I was not extremely close to him, it was heartbreaking to see my mom lose her father. I can't imagine life without my father & I know she didn't want to start imagine her life without hers.

Besides the loss, I gained another year of being with Tommy. We celebrated our two years of being together on January 4th, 2011. My longest relationship & a relationship that made me a better person, regardless of it later ending this year.

In February, I celebrated my last homecoming as a high school senior. It was one of my favorite nights. The next day, we got to hold a homecoming for Special Needs which was beyond fun and moving! I could cry tears of joy from watching their faces light up.

March was known for the never-ending sleepovers at Chelsea's and the month I got to see my favorite NHL player, Alexander Ovechkin play.

April was an emotional roller-coaster. This was the big month that Brianna and I became "sisters" & started hanging out almost every day. It also was the month that Tommy broke up with me. Regardless, I don't regret a moment or memory that I shared with him. We had a beautiful relationship & it came to a finish. Who knows what God has planned for the both of us?! I wish him the best in all he does & I know he feels the same for me.

This was also the month where I wanted a change. I chopped off 3-4 inches of my hair- where it sat on my shoulders and I joined the soccer team which was probably one of the best and most challenging experiences in high school even though I barely got to play because of grades and my new job. I got hired at a movie theater where I met my two new best friends, Ashley & Sam and so many more incredible people that I love so much! :)

May was my favorite month of all. It was my last Prom that I shared with Robert, who I had the time of my life with. He's a sweetheart & I am thankful for that memory with him.

I became extremely close with a boy named Josh ,who came along and changed everything. I am thankful for all our wild memories. I still think he's an incredible guy and has a lot going for him even though we have gone our separate ways because of school, work, etc.

The best part was Senior Trip! I am beyond thankful and happy that I went. I saw the beauty of the mountains, trails, scenery, etc. Everything else in life seemed so small when I was put in the middle of God's creation. Everything about that trip was beautiful. I did my best to capture all of it. I got to experience a rehabilitation center in Arizona where one of my close friends came out of & wanted to visit everyone. It was beyond moving and emotional. It made me open my eyes to how beautiful & fragile life is and how glad I am to have the supportive, Christian family that I was given. To experience this whole entire trip with my class, I had to ride an airplane for the first time. For those who are wondering, I survived and didn't throw up! And of course- we can't forget Barbra Streisand.

When I think of June, I think of freedom, being crazy & eighteen. I graduated from high school and got to go to Taylor Swift's concert the very next day. How cool is that?! I also saw Rihanna, B.O.B, Tim McGraw, The Band Perry & Katy Perry. It was also the one year anniversary of losing my best friend, Timmy. I promised him I would graduate from high school and I did- I even passed Biology! In memory of him, I got my lip pierced which he said I would never do because I'm too chicken. Well, Tim- I hope you're looking at me now!

July was a little stressful with my graduation party & getting everything ready for that. In the end, it was fun and a great time with family and friends who got to share that special day with me. I got to see Keith Urban, Jake Owen, Nicki Minaj & Britney Spears. I also went to Cedar Point with Bri & Ryan- where Bri learned to whip her hair back and forth.

I started my first semester of college & got a new kitten named Baby towards the end of August, but before that I went to visit my Grandma with my mom, two brothers & Bri- where my Uncle Scott, cousins- Christian & Emily also were. I'd have to say going to the beach and relaxing was the best part. Having all of us there was crazy, but enjoyable! I love them. :) My brother and I got to go to the Kenny Chesney & Zac Brown Band Concert for free because I won tickets off the radio. To say the least, that concert was definitely interesting.. but, Ryan and I had a good time. I also saw Lady Antebellum (my favorite band) with Melynn at the zoo! It was a weird location, but an awesome show as always. They never let me down with their music.

In September, I finally had my diploma in hand which I had worked so incredibly hard for. It was definately a weird change going from high school to college, but it's growing on me and I like where I'm at. I went to see Chris Brown and attempted to see Jason Aldean- both times were great and I had fun with the people that joined me. I also went to my first Michigan football game with Shane. It was overwhelming at first being in such a huge stadium, but it was a fun time that I shared with him even though we had to work afterwards.

October was my birthday month and favorite holiday- Halloween. I went to Cedar Point with Bri and Ryan for Halloweekends! We literally did every single Haunted House and I was dragged on the Dragster for the first time. I almost cried! I was so incredibly scared, but I told myself that I was fearless and did it anyway.

I had a great birthday and shared it with Ashley, Brianna, Ryan and Nick who put up with me all night long! Thank you guys :)

Later that week, we made pumpkins. I made two; both were a fail. Shane's pumpkin was probably the best.
The first thought that comes to mind when I think of November is Theory of a Deadman. Bri and I experienced our first VIP concert and got to meet the guys then watch the concert- fourth row from the stage. I loved the whole night. Plus who wouldn't want to meet Tyler?!

I went to the Michigan vs. Ohio State game with one of my friends & big U of M fan, Ryan. The whole game almost gave me two or three heart-attacks, but Michigan won and Ryan & I are now part of football history.

Demi Lovato was also this month. Seeing her on stage and being as strong as she is now was really great. It's cool to see artists share their experiences and come out stronger than before. She honestly was one of my favorite performers that I have seen.

After these two concerts, we went to Wisconsin to celebrate my second favorite holiday, Thanksgiving with my mom's side of the family. I was beyond happy to get out of the car and see my cousins. I love them all, despite the long distance we have between here and Wisconsin. Oh & we can't forget the Black Friday shopping that we did in record time this year- only one hour!!

And here we are in December, the most enchanting month of them all.

I finished my first semester of college with B's! On one of my exams I had a 203/200 and the other a 170/170- which I thank God for almost every day. Looking back at high school, where I didn't have the grades I wanted and looking at where I am now- is a miracle. I have been motivated and moving in the right direction thanks to those who helped me out my senior year. God is good!
After months of dating- Shane finally made me his girlfriend. I look forward to all the beautiful times ahead with him. He never fails to put a smile on my face. :)

The best friend turned 21 & I still remain the designated driver for her. Oh and Shane, Ashley, Ryan, Justin- the list goes on. Let's be honest though, I wouldn't have it any other way.

As the new year enters quickly, I hope for moments that "own the night". I want those moments that take your breath away, the ones you never forget, ones that you dive into fearlessly, ones where you look back and laugh or can't stop smiling about, the kind that you take pictures of and hang up for years in your room. I look forward to "owning" 2012 & hope that whoever is reading this does too. Don't let worries, distractions, fears and people get in your way of your special nights. Don't settle for anything less this 2012, than what you deserve.

I've loved & I've lost.

If you let me, here's what I'll do- I'll take care of you.

It doesn't have to be Thanksgiving to be thankful.

I know I should be working on my project right now, but I just have so much that I am incredibly happy & thankful for. I literally cannot stop smiling and singing. I can my happiness glowing on my skin like a nice summer tan.

I just love my life & the people in it, I really do.

My reasons:

J Squared ; my favorite duo. I remember starting work, thinking- Wowzers! They really hate each other & looking now, I do not know if I could find another friendship that cares for each other so much like they do. It's awesome. I love them. I know that if I ever needed them, they'd be there. If I needed to cry my eyes out, Jaime would probably laugh then hug me while Jazz punches her in the face.. it's all good. ;) They're both beautiful girls with beautiful hearts & I'm blessed to have them in my life.

Brianna's 21st birthday ; is coming up & I've been having a blast getting shenanigans ready for that with my brother (her boyfriend). She deserves a great day (or week) for her birthday and we're gonna give it to her.

Scoring a 203 out of 200 on my final exam? I think that's enough said right there!

My family ; my backbone. We've gone through a lot recently and I truly couldn't be more thankful than I am to have them in my life. God gave me the best parents I could ever ask for and He knew that I needed Drew & Ryan to keep me inline. They're the reason I have the biggest heart.

My job ; my second home. As much drama goes down there, we have each other at the end of the day. I have made so many relationships there with people and customers- I am beyond blessed with such a great job that I can be myself & be accepted- for who I am, what I believe and what I do. They work with me, keep me level headed & always make me laugh.. sometimes even pee.

Ashley, Brianna & Sam ; my three best friends. I cannot go a day without talking to all three of them. I don't even know what I'd do without any of them in my life. All three are so different, but so alike. So beautiful & unique! I am so thankful they put up with me and continue to love me every day.

Christmas Shopping ; because I am a big time giver. I spoil the crap out of my lovelies >:)

&&

Jesus Christ ; my reason for every breath I take & the the true reason to celebrate Christmas.

Wonderful Things

I was thinking about a bunch of wonderful things
that I think need recognition. :)

-Panda Express
Best Chinese food of my life!

-Purple
My new favorite color. :)

-Sunflowers
My new favorite flower- besides crazy, colored daisies!

-Crunch Wrap
One of Taco Bell's classics.

-Chicken Fries
One of Burger King's classics.

-Sprite Slurpees
Limited edition at 711! I could totally drink one right now.

-Colbie Caillat
I've been listening to all her albums, non-stop. All day, every day!

-Crackle
The only nail polish that deserves recognition.

-Harry Potter books
I've been reading them like an addiction.

-The Lucky One
Let's be honest, everyone loves Zac Efron's hot face.... and body!

-Khole Kardashian's Vocabulary
It just completely cracks me up! I can't handle it. :)

-Ellen DeGeneres
She's an awesome lady!
I was so excited to see her downtown for a good cause.

-Polar Bears
Who doesn't LOVE a white, cuddly, fluffy bear?!

-Christmas Shopping
I love buying things for other people, seriously.
It makes me happy to see people happy!

After this, it's bed time for this girl.

Have you ever made out with 2 different people in one night?
Never.

Ever thought your cousin was hot?
I have attractive cousins, but I don't look at them in that way.

Have you ever stolen money from a friend?
Nope!

Have you ever been arrested?
No.

Have you ever forgotten someone's name?
More than likely.

Do you wear contacts?
Almost every day!

Have you ever fired a gun?
I can't say that I have.

Have you ever had a dream about your best friend?
Probably.

Have you ever had a dream about your boss?
I haven't.

Who was the last person that slept beside you?
Brianna!

Last person that made you cry?
No one has made me cry recently; it was just the situation.

Last person you got in a fight with?
I don't even know.

Your worst enemy?
I don't have one.

Where is your favorite place to be?
With my best friends or with Shane. :)

Name two people you miss really badly:
Shane & Timmy.

What was the last thing you highlighted?
Probably something for class.

What color is your bedroom?
Pink & orange!

Eye color?
Green.

Siblings?
Two older brothers.

What color underwear are you wearing right now?
Yellow & black.

Favorite Holiday?
Halloween!

Dogs or cats?
Both :)

Been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do?
I'm sure I have.

Best Friend?
Ashley, Brianna & Sam.

At work, who do you trust the most?
I trust a lot of people, actually.

At home, who is the messiest?
Probably me.

What CD is closed to you right now?
Just blank ones to use for burning.

Do you wear your seat belt in the car?
Most of the time, unless I'm sleeping.

Do you talk on your cell phone when you drive?
Not usually.

What 3 things can always be found in your refrigerator?
Vitamin water, Reese's & regular water.

What music do you listen to the most?
I literally listen to it all, but Taylor Swift is overplayed.

On a scale of 1-5 how organized are you?
3 or 4, depending on what area of life.

What was your best subject in school?
I don't really have a best subject.
I was excellent at writing papers & projects for any subject.

Do you smoke?
No.

Ever been in a physical fight?
No.

Ever worn your pajamas to places other than your house?
Many times!

Name 5 of the most important things in your life:
Jesus Christ, family/friends, school, work & boy.

Are you a morning person?
Absolutely not.

Ever had surgery?
No, thankfully.

Something or someone you miss the most from childhood:
The innocence of being a child.

Usually late, early or right on time?
Usually late.

Coke or Pepsi?
Neither.

Do you have a best friend?
Three of'em. :)

Have you ever stolen anything?
When I was younger, I did once.

Have you ever cheated on someone?
No.

How often do you use four letter words?
On a regular basis.

Have you ever taken candy from a child?
No.

Would you rather do the dishes or clean the bedroom?
Clean my room.

Would you rather be caught stealing or cheating?
Cheating on a test.

Have you ever "hooked up" with a friend?
No.

Do you fight with your friends?
Rarely.

Which of your friends is the bossiest?
Brianna.

Do you love any of your friends?
All of them. :)

How did you get your name?
My parents picked it out.
It's from my great grandma.

A memory you won't forget:
Timothy Jon Robinson

Do you have a good personality?
I personally think so. :)

What kind of friend are you?
The kind that will always be there for you,
even at four o'clock in the morning.

Do you believe that love is forever?
Yes.

Do you get hurt by people easily?
Sometimes.. I just have high expectations of people.

Does ice cream make you happy?
Not unless I have lactose pills!! :)

Have you ever cried watching a movie?
A selected few, yes.

Nickname?
Kate.

Do you like thunderstorms?
I'm absolutely terrified of them.

What's the first thing you think in the morning?
"Blah, what time is it?"

At home, who knows you the best?
My momma.

At work, who knows you the best?
Ashley & Brianna.

How would your mother describe you?
Loving.

What is something you don't want to live without?
Love & happiness.

At work, what occupies your mind the most?
Theater times, Shane & plans for that day.

How many shower curtains do you have?
Four; two in each bathroom.

Have you ever lived alone?
No, I could never do that.

How long is your lunch break?
Like ten minutes? I don't know.

Do you make good choices?
I like to think that I do. :)

Blizzard or Frosty?
Reese's Blizzard!

Do you put off doing things because you are afraid of what will happen?
No, I just procrastinate like no other.

Do you forgive and forget, or just forgive?
Forgive, learn from it & move forward.

Are you shy or outgoing?
Extremely outgoing!

Would you rather run a mile or be beaten up?
I would rather run a mile, thanks.

Can you whistle?
No.. fail.

Who makes you laugh the most?
Justin! :)

Have you ever cried like a baby when someone died?
Yes.

Who was your first love?
I don't know, honestly.

Ever wanted something you can't have?
Yes, but whatever that is meant to be will workout perfectly.

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star?

I just wanted to mention how much I admire strong couples and their beautiful, relationships and most importantly- trust & love. I look at young women like Allyce and see her still head over heels for a man- her husband, miles & miles away fighting for our country, regardless of living a few days or even months without him. I see Casey counting down the days, but still having the time of her life. I swear time flew by & that boy was back to holding her for a week or two. Not once had Casey ever doubted her relationship, not once had Allyce complained. I see high school sweet-hearts like Becca & Miles and Chelsea & Justin, who are still young & going strong. Then there's high school sweet-hearts like Carla & Colin who have been together for years and are getting married so soon, it's crazy- the good kind of crazy.

There's so many people who throw "I love you" around like it's a mass text, so many people who throw it all away, so many people who forget what love is really about. Whenever I forget, I think about the couples who I mentioned and how imperfect their relationship is, but how perfect their love is. It's real and I wish people would open their eyes to see that & take notes. I know I have. I won't deny that at all.

Love is...
-putting the other person before yourself
-wanting the person to be happy, regardless of your own happiness
-patient; always waiting and taking time, never rushing
-being yourself; not hiding anything
-trusting the other person to not break your heart
-loyal; your his one and only- there are no doubts
-silly; being able to laugh together at everything and even each other
-work; always willing to fix the problems at hand without leaving each other
-communication; openness & having no secrets
-happiness; the smile that will never wipe off your face
-beautiful; like the stars and the moon, nothing is more beautiful than being in love
-falling in love with each other over and over again, every day
-looking past someone's imperfections and still wanting to be with them
-fearless; no doubts, no regrets, just diving in head first to whatever is throw your way
-encouraging; always lifting the other person up
-funny; no matter what mood- you can make them laugh & even laugh at yourself
-thrilling; even if you're just holding hands
-confident; always believing in the other person
-strength; you'd rather fight with that certain someone than kiss someone else
-romantic; being head over heels every time you kiss
-willing; if you don't want to do something- you'll do it anyway for that certain someone
-forgiving; continuing to love them even if they hurt you

The list goes on & on, I just wanted to write this blog because I want people to know that there is hope, there is a fairy-tale love out there and that there is a certain someone out there for you. Don't settle for less than you deserve.

One of the highlights of my year.

I experienced my first VIP Concert with Theory of a Deadman & my sissy! :)

You're running with the fastest girl in town.

Do you tend to speed when you drive?
When it's just me, yes.

Does your temper flare a lot?
Not really.. I don't have a temper, I just get sassy.

Do you get emotional easily?
Yes, I'm an emotional person. I'm not afraid to show how I feel.

Which shoe goes on first?
Left.

Are you lazy?
Not at all. I just procrastinate more than I should.

Name one thing you do that people always tell you about:
Play with my nose ring or my lip ring, haha. :)

Are you superstitious?
Nah, I think that's silly.

Do you get bored with relationships quickly?
No, that's clearly a guy thing.

Can you sleep without blankets covering you?
Absolutely not.

What do you sleep in?
Jammies! Sweats & a tee.

YOUR ABCs

A – is for the last person that made you ANGRY:
Whoever disrespected my parents.

B – is for BEER you prefer:
I don't like beer.

C – is for do you have a CAT?
Two of them, actually.

D – is for can you DANCE?
Of course!

E – is for do you have your EARS pierced?
Five times in each ear, yes.

F – is for your best FRIEND?
Ashley, Brianna & Sam. :)

G – is for did you ever watch GUTS on Nickelodeon?
Almost every morning! I loved that show.

H – is for the last person who HUGGED you?
Shane. :)

I – is for close your eyes.. what IMAGE do you see?
Shane, seeing as I was just thinking of him.

J – is for have you ever been to JAIL?
No.

K – is for when is the last time you flew a KITE?
When I was probably four.

L – is for your first LOVE:
Zachary, but Tommy deserves more credit than Zach.

M – is for the last piece of MAIL you got?
A letter & coloring page from Patricia!

N – is for do you remember NERF guns?
Yes! Buy me one. :)

O – is for do you OWN a car?
No, but I share one with my momma.

P – is for your favorite PAST-TIME?
Disneyworld, senior trip & senior year.

Q – is for do you like peace & QUIET?
No, honestly.

R – is for do you like the color RED?
Yes! As long as it's not blood.

S – is for how many hours of SLEEP you need to function?:
To be an extremely happy camper? 9, but I'll settle for 7 or 8.

T – is for what TIME is it?
9:37pm

U – is for what is UNDER your bed?
Another bed.

V – is for what you did last VALENTINE’S day:
Spent it with Tommy.

W – is for do you drink a lot of WATER?
Yes, I really do.

X – is for have you ever had an X-RAY?
On my finger & rib cage.. good times!

Y – is for the last person you YELLED at?
My mom because she couldn't hear over my music.

Z – is for have you ever watched ZORRO?
I don't think so.

RANDOM

Who do you wish you could hang out with right now?
I was suppose to hangout with Ryan, but our plans got screwed.

Name one thing you absolutely cannot stand:
Rude people.

Where do you spend most of your time?
With either Ashley, Brianna or Sam.

Have you ever hit a squirrel when you were driving?
No! I would never forgive myself.

Did your car ever break down?
Yup! On the way home from Central.

What is the longest amount of time you’ve been awake?
24 hours.

What would you do if you found out the world was ending in one week?
I wouldn't believe it.

Do scary movies make you paranoid when you watch them alone?
I never watch a scary movie by myself. That's just stupid.

Name one thing you’ve lied about recently.
I lied about going to church last week. I really didn't go because I missed my alarm!

What is the worst movie you’ve ever seen?
Dear John.

Who was the first person to ever give you flowers?
EVER?! My daddy. :)

This is for Great Grandma, Jess, Jeff, & Timmy.

All the empty disappears.
I remember why I'm here.
Just surrender and believe.
I fall down on my knees.

Oh, hello world..

Life is so fragile & there's so much beauty in everything,
but not everyone has the courage to open their eyes.
Life is beautiful, even when it rains.

Get used to it.

Countdown? Two days.
Birthday reservations have officially been made.

Always be yourself.

You find a way to replace my pain with love.

I think it must be the rain falling on my rooftop, puddles in the pavement, splashes from the tires of cars driving by, that has made me want to sit down, reflect on my life & talk to God.

This time, last year, I was sitting in Psychology class. It was my senior year and first year of not having my boyfriend, Tommy, at school with me. I was nervous about it, but God gave me the most beautiful, three friends a girl could ever ask for- Chelsea, Becca and Kristen. The times that I share with them are probably all in my top ten favorite high school memories.

The year before that, I was a junior- figuring out who I was and supporting my boyfriend, Tommy, as he conquered his senior year of high school. It was probably my hardest year. I lost my best friend the summer after Junior year. It destroyed me. My heart was in pieces on the hospital floor, saying bye to his handsome face. I had Melissa & Tommy though, who loved me- even when it was hard.

2 years ago, I was a sophomore. I was struggling with who I was at my old school. I couldn't figure out why I was at school. I didn't care about anything. I had Timmy by my side at school and that's all that really mattered to me besides barely passing my classes. I had a boyfriend, Austin, who I faced some struggles with in my life. The struggles weren't his fault. They were just challenges thrown my way that I had to face or runaway from. I kept choosing to run. I kept running and running until I ran into Tommy- who changed it all.

Today, I'm a high school graduate & freshman in college- living my life fearlessly. I may not have the same people in my life that I did in the past, but I am thankful for every memory that I've had with them. God has a way with situations. They're handcrafted and beautifully made. He has all the details painted out. I have found where I belong.

My life & feelings in pictures.

Everyone has their own definition of fearless. I think fearless is living life without those doubts, fears and negative thoughts holding you back. I think fearless is making someone realize how special they are even though they end up only being in your life for a short period of time. I think fearless is leaning in for a kiss despite what people say about that person. Fearless is finding your classes on the first day of college, even though you can't find a parking spot. Fearless is changing your life around for the better even if it means leaving certain people behind. Fearless is letting go of people who hurt you, despite wanting them in your life. Fearless is getting your blood drawn in hopes of getting better. Fearless is falling in love with someone & not judging them based on past relationships. I want to continue to live fearlessly.