SL & EC ; This is for you.

 It officially has hit me that my best friend, Samantha- is getting married.
Why? Because I cried this morning. I'm hopeless & that's okay.

We've only known each other for over a year, but it feels so much longer than that. I have been through literally everything with this girl. Together, we have a way of knowing everything is going to be okay. Now, she's marrying the love of her life- Evan. Evan and her had their rocky moments, but truth is- whatever is meant to be will workout perfectly and that's what is happening for them. As her best friend, I am nothing, but happy for her. 

I will be with you, Sam & we'll do this together- even 23497845934739 miles away.
You will always be my best friend and I will always love you unconditionally.

I know 110% that this is what she wants- after all the fights, long distance conversations, letters, and disagreements.. they're still madly in love with each other.

I know Sam will make the perfect wife. She has always been Evan's number one fan.

I know Evan will always take care of Sam. I've seen him take care of her in person & he makes her the happiest girl in the world, just by a simple letter.

My advice for the both of them?
It will get hard. There will be moments where you ask yourself- did I really do this? Why did I do this? & when those thoughts pop in your head- I hope you go back to day one. The day you both became a couple, inseparable and each others' best friend. Continue to fall more in love with each other every day. Keep your faith even when it's shaking. You have two supportive families who will never stop loving the both of you. You both have your fans- your best friends. We'll never stop loving you. The key here is how much love you have between the two of you and everyone who loves you. Love will get you through & it's all that matters. I love you two, forever.

Don't Stop Believing

Sometimes I think I take life too seriously and other days, I don't take life serious enough. I understand that I am young and have plenty of years ahead of me, but I don't want to miss an opportunity.

Lately, I've been scared of falling in love. I don't want to waste time with the wrong person. I don't want to give all I've got to find it all thrown away. I understand that all guys aren't the same, but we'll see if someone can prove that to me and sweep me off my feet.

I'm honestly not looking for a relationship right now or willing to settle down. If someone came along and changed everything, maybe- but right now, I'm just doing me.

I did awesome my first semester of college then fell apart during my second semester. I'm not only embarrassed of myself, but disappointed. I made a promise to myself to focus on what's important. I could care less in high school and I never want to gain that mentality ever again, especially now that I'm in college.

Besides gaining focus of what is important, I've recognized things that make me really happy..

• Conversations with Rob
  -He understands me better than most. I can always count on him and love hearing his opinion.
• Glee!
  -It's my new addiction. I mean c'mon.. Hello Finn & Noah! I secretly wish my life was a musical.
• Slurpees
  -I've been drinking at least two a day with my official diagnosis of bronchitis.
• Notes on my receipts when I waitress
  -It's encouraging. It's the little things that make me happy.
• Neon shorts
  -Enough said.
• All my new friends at Scramblers
  -Regardless of random kitchen melt-downs, we are a family and family sticks together.
• The colors: purple & blue
  -I'm obsessed with them! They're cool colors and I just enjoy them. Don't judge me! :)
• Red Hair
  -I'm sticking with it this time. I don't know why I even changed it.
• Blue Eyes
  -I'm a sucker for boys with blue eyes.
• Second Chances
  -You individuals know who you are. Please don't make me regret it!
• Sam & Evan
  -Ev left for the Army and Sam has been his biggest fan. I want a love like theirs.
• Gummy Worms
  -My brother just bought me some & I'm stuffing my face. Get over it.
  
  Spring classes, Kalahari, The Avengers, Alexa's play and the Mother/Daughter banquet are all this month!

Let's see what God has in store for me this month.. let's hope for lots of flowers! ;)

It doesn't have to be Thanksgiving to be thankful.

I know I should be working on my project right now, but I just have so much that I am incredibly happy & thankful for. I literally cannot stop smiling and singing. I can my happiness glowing on my skin like a nice summer tan.

I just love my life & the people in it, I really do.

My reasons:

J Squared ; my favorite duo. I remember starting work, thinking- Wowzers! They really hate each other & looking now, I do not know if I could find another friendship that cares for each other so much like they do. It's awesome. I love them. I know that if I ever needed them, they'd be there. If I needed to cry my eyes out, Jaime would probably laugh then hug me while Jazz punches her in the face.. it's all good. ;) They're both beautiful girls with beautiful hearts & I'm blessed to have them in my life.

Brianna's 21st birthday ; is coming up & I've been having a blast getting shenanigans ready for that with my brother (her boyfriend). She deserves a great day (or week) for her birthday and we're gonna give it to her.

Scoring a 203 out of 200 on my final exam? I think that's enough said right there!

My family ; my backbone. We've gone through a lot recently and I truly couldn't be more thankful than I am to have them in my life. God gave me the best parents I could ever ask for and He knew that I needed Drew & Ryan to keep me inline. They're the reason I have the biggest heart.

My job ; my second home. As much drama goes down there, we have each other at the end of the day. I have made so many relationships there with people and customers- I am beyond blessed with such a great job that I can be myself & be accepted- for who I am, what I believe and what I do. They work with me, keep me level headed & always make me laugh.. sometimes even pee.

Ashley, Brianna & Sam ; my three best friends. I cannot go a day without talking to all three of them. I don't even know what I'd do without any of them in my life. All three are so different, but so alike. So beautiful & unique! I am so thankful they put up with me and continue to love me every day.

Christmas Shopping ; because I am a big time giver. I spoil the crap out of my lovelies >:)

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Jesus Christ ; my reason for every breath I take & the the true reason to celebrate Christmas.