Felt Good on My Lips

 Probably one of my favorite nights of summer..

I mean honestly, who wouldn't love to see these two sexy men?

God makes no mistakes

I'll be the greatest fan of your life.

This handsome gentleman makes me the happiest girl on earth.
The End.

SL & EC ; This is for you.

 It officially has hit me that my best friend, Samantha- is getting married.
Why? Because I cried this morning. I'm hopeless & that's okay.

We've only known each other for over a year, but it feels so much longer than that. I have been through literally everything with this girl. Together, we have a way of knowing everything is going to be okay. Now, she's marrying the love of her life- Evan. Evan and her had their rocky moments, but truth is- whatever is meant to be will workout perfectly and that's what is happening for them. As her best friend, I am nothing, but happy for her. 

I will be with you, Sam & we'll do this together- even 23497845934739 miles away.
You will always be my best friend and I will always love you unconditionally.

I know 110% that this is what she wants- after all the fights, long distance conversations, letters, and disagreements.. they're still madly in love with each other.

I know Sam will make the perfect wife. She has always been Evan's number one fan.

I know Evan will always take care of Sam. I've seen him take care of her in person & he makes her the happiest girl in the world, just by a simple letter.

My advice for the both of them?
It will get hard. There will be moments where you ask yourself- did I really do this? Why did I do this? & when those thoughts pop in your head- I hope you go back to day one. The day you both became a couple, inseparable and each others' best friend. Continue to fall more in love with each other every day. Keep your faith even when it's shaking. You have two supportive families who will never stop loving the both of you. You both have your fans- your best friends. We'll never stop loving you. The key here is how much love you have between the two of you and everyone who loves you. Love will get you through & it's all that matters. I love you two, forever.

These fancy things will never come in between.

I'm the happiest girl.

Current addictions:
-Glee, Season 2
-Watermelon Slurpee
-Cherry Pepsi
-Subway
-Pretty Little Liars Books
-Girlfriend/Boyfriend Mash Up by: NSYNC* & Justin Bieber

I have met a bunch of people that I adore
& now, I don't know what I'd do without!
Jordan, Randy, Josh, Jason, & Brandon.
They're the funniest group of people-
never failing to put a smile on my face.

I re-did the furniture in my room.
There's so much more room! I'm loving it.
I just have to re-decorate it all, but I'll save that for a rainy day.

I haven't signed up for classes yet because of confusion on my account.
I contacted the people I needed to meet with and they're taking care of it for me. God is so good.

I'm going back to dancing- haven't decided on a team or studio yet.
So, we'll see!

I have a lot planned for the rest of this year.
I'm excited to see where life takes me.
I have the most incredible boyfriend,
supportive family and hilarious best friends.

Love my life.

Fifty Shades of Grey

I just finished "Fifty Shades of Grey" today & this is my make-believe cast of beautiful people.

The reason why I'm lucky.

My best friend & now: boyfriend. 
as of June 4th

Remember this Moment

 Leyla

There's so much I would love to say about Leyla, but the first thought that comes to mind is her loyalty and honesty. She's beautiful inside and out. She can do anything she sets her mind to. Leyla works hard, perseveres and never gives up hope. She pushed me in high school to never give up and was one of my best friends. Her heart of gold and hilarious sense of humor always kept me smiling. She's going to make a difference in this world. I'm sure of it.

Deuteronomy 31:6 Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the LORD your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.”

 Nathan

We definitely had our struggles. Both of us didn't believe that we would even make it through high school. We would sit in the back of praise band and share our secrets, dreams and stories. I cherish this boy and his friendship more than anything. I know that I can come to Nate about anything and he would never judge me. He has strength. It's something I really admire. I don't think he gives himself enough credit. He has accomplished so much and has come so far. His faith is so unique and powerful. I love it. I love to hear his thoughts about certain topics in the Bible and where he stands. He's a great guy. I don't know how I would've graduated from high school last year without him by my side. I'm beyond thankful. Now, we're both going to be attending the same college and I couldn't be more excited. I pray our friendship will continue to grow stronger. Nate is the best friend a girl could ever ask for.

Isaiah 41:10  Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you,  I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

 Allison

At first, we didn't agree on anything. We would fight over nothing that held importance. Looking back, it makes me laugh because we could've spent all that time being friends. We quickly developed a friendship despite our differences. Allison is beautiful. God has blessed her with so many talents. She's a leader, a dancer, so intelligent and a great  friend to her three best friends- Jennifer, Becca and Shannon. Her loyalty to them and her family really shines. When she loves, she loves with her whole heart. I know for a fact that she loves the Lord. I can see it when she dances as strange as that sounds. I can see it when she babysits. She's a lover and will fight for what she loves. Allie will go far in life because of this. She truly knows how to love and I pray Allison, that this will never change.
 I love you always.

1 John 4:7-8  Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God.  Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love.

 Kristen

When I think of Kristen- the first word that pops into my brain is: Successful. Why? Because that is what she is. Kristen was a cheerleader, girlfriend, best friend of many, on yearbook, on dance team, beta club, etc. Kristen did it all and never lost sight of what was important- The Lord. She continued to be loyal to her family and her God. I admire that the most about her. She always has time for the people she loves and makes time, regardless of her busy schedule. She's so beautiful and has a big heart. I have so many memories with her that I will never forget. She was one of my best friends. One of my cheerleaders in life to keep going. I will never forget her and am so proud of her for heading to U of M. She'll be successful there too. I know it.

1 Corinthians 10:13  No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.

I love all of you. Always live & love fearlessly.

Wonderstruck.

"Love is a beautiful word, and shouldn't be feared. I would never want ya to second guess ever saying it."

My response?


"I've said it a lot, but I don't regret saying it because at the time that was something I felt strongly & that's something no one can take away from me. People deserve to hear that they're loved. I think some people don't hear it enough."

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This leads me to write what I look for in a man.

"Boys want to win your heart. Men want to treasure it." -Courageous

Someone who is compassionate.
-He loves his own family & learns to love mine.

Someone who is passionate.
-He has goals, plans & a future is willing to share them with me.

Someone who is faithful.
-He makes me feel like I'm the only girl in the world.

Someone who is caring.
-He is willing to take care of me when I'm sick & wipe my tears when I'm sad.

Someone who is a lover & a fighter.
-He fights for what he loves.

Someone who is funny.
-Once he makes me laugh, he is capable of owning my heart.

Someone who is willing to make sacrifices.
-He is willing to adjust and put up with my crazy life, just as I would for him.

Someone who is giving.
-He loves with 110% of his heart. It takes two to make a relationship work.

Someone who is strong.
-He catches me when I fall.

Someone who is willing to go to church with me.
-My faith is a big part of my life. It's something I can't give up or change.

Someone who is willing to go to crazy places & vacations with me.
-He is willing to attend Black Friday Shopping in Wisconsin or Disneyworld with my family.

Someone who is aware that the little things mean the most.
-He texts me, surprises me, and makes sure I know that I am thought about.

Someone who is patient.
-He takes his time with me. He is willing to wait and listen.

Someone who isn't trying to take advantage of me.
-My virginity is not something that I'm just throwing away.

Someone who gives advice and is encouraging.
-In a relationship, we must build each other up every day.

Someone who is sassy.

-He is willing to be sarcastic and maybe, sometimes rude (in a playful manner).

Someone who is honest.
-If he isn't honest, he isn't worth it.

Someone who is respectful.
-He respects me, his mother, his elders, and most importantly- my father.
If you want to one day ask for my hand in marriage, my daddy is the one you're asking first.

Someone who is fun.
-He is adventurous, willing to go out to Cedar Point, haunted houses, concerts & other various activities.

Someone who is determined.
-He is a hard worker in all he does.

Someone who has dreams.
-He shares his dreams with me & allows me to help in whatever way that I can.

Someone who enjoys public display of affection.
-He wants the world to know I'm his girl and isn't afraid of showing it. Anywhere.

Someone who is calm.
-He can relax me when I'm stressing out over nothing.

Someone who never gives up.
-When we get in a fight, he wants to fix it- not get even.

Someone who can secretly be five sometimes.
-Nothing is hotter than a boy who will color or watch Disney movies with me.

Someone who is a leader.
-He is admired and a good person.

Someone who has an incredible personality.
-He is never boring and shines in everything he does.

Someone who is fearless & willing to love me no matter what it takes.
-Together, we can conquer the world.

Someone who looks like Zac Efron.

Ladybug!

My dream husband.. Go ahead, judge me.

Logan Thibault from "The Lucky One"

Flynn Rider from "Tangled"

 
Will Blakelee from "The Last Song"

Jake Perry from "Sweet Home Alabama"

Don't Stop Believing

Sometimes I think I take life too seriously and other days, I don't take life serious enough. I understand that I am young and have plenty of years ahead of me, but I don't want to miss an opportunity.

Lately, I've been scared of falling in love. I don't want to waste time with the wrong person. I don't want to give all I've got to find it all thrown away. I understand that all guys aren't the same, but we'll see if someone can prove that to me and sweep me off my feet.

I'm honestly not looking for a relationship right now or willing to settle down. If someone came along and changed everything, maybe- but right now, I'm just doing me.

I did awesome my first semester of college then fell apart during my second semester. I'm not only embarrassed of myself, but disappointed. I made a promise to myself to focus on what's important. I could care less in high school and I never want to gain that mentality ever again, especially now that I'm in college.

Besides gaining focus of what is important, I've recognized things that make me really happy..

• Conversations with Rob
  -He understands me better than most. I can always count on him and love hearing his opinion.
• Glee!
  -It's my new addiction. I mean c'mon.. Hello Finn & Noah! I secretly wish my life was a musical.
• Slurpees
  -I've been drinking at least two a day with my official diagnosis of bronchitis.
• Notes on my receipts when I waitress
  -It's encouraging. It's the little things that make me happy.
• Neon shorts
  -Enough said.
• All my new friends at Scramblers
  -Regardless of random kitchen melt-downs, we are a family and family sticks together.
• The colors: purple & blue
  -I'm obsessed with them! They're cool colors and I just enjoy them. Don't judge me! :)
• Red Hair
  -I'm sticking with it this time. I don't know why I even changed it.
• Blue Eyes
  -I'm a sucker for boys with blue eyes.
• Second Chances
  -You individuals know who you are. Please don't make me regret it!
• Sam & Evan
  -Ev left for the Army and Sam has been his biggest fan. I want a love like theirs.
• Gummy Worms
  -My brother just bought me some & I'm stuffing my face. Get over it.
  
  Spring classes, Kalahari, The Avengers, Alexa's play and the Mother/Daughter banquet are all this month!

Let's see what God has in store for me this month.. let's hope for lots of flowers! ;)

If I could I relive those days.

I got a message today from an old friend who has known me since I was fourteen years old. There is no better feeling then knowing someone cares, that someone is looking out for you, watching you grow. It's a beautiful feeling.

Time flies.

I'm just one more thing that you can't keep.

Why you looking at me, spitting the same old line?

Trying to creep back, ain't no flipping my mind.
Don't you get it by now? The story's over.
Still calling my name outside my house.
I'm hitting the switch, watch the lights go out.

I hope you ache.

Would you catch a couple thousand fireflies &put them in a lamp to light my world?

Seriously... I'm sitting here, sweating. It is so beautiful, yet so incredibly hot outside! I bought a new sundress today to celebrate this kind of weather. I'm such a summer girl. I've got "The Band Perry" playing and will be cleaning my room shortly. That's what spring is known for, right? Cleaning?

I'm single.
I've been working and babysitting.
I signed up for three spring classes.
I told my parents about my two tattoos.
I made my first month's payment on my car.
I had my blood drawn.
I've been working out.
I've been eating healthier.
I switched work hours so I can go to church on Sunday.

I've been cleaning out my life, basically and it's a beautiful thing..

P.S.
Let's not forget: 7 days until The Hunger Games!

Happy Birthday Daddy!

Today is my Daddy's birthday. When I was four years old, he was the only man in my life I ever trusted. When I was thirteen years old, he was my enemy because we could never agree. When I was eighteen, he was my best friend. I'm 19 years old & I couldn't be more thankful for the father I'm given who has a heart of gold, who puts Christ first, who always shares his blessings with others & who is still- the only man I trust with my heart.

Nothing is Better!

Nothing is better than driving around with a Darth Vader mask on.

Nothing is better than taking 7 pictures with random strangers, while I'm dressed up as Queen A (from Star Wars) at work.

Nothing is better than cuddling in bed with my kitten after a long day.

Nothing is better than Channing Tatum with his shirt off.

Nothing is better than the smell of a new book when you flip the pages really fast.

Nothing is better than orange juice when you first wake up.

Nothing is better than "What I Know (Cover)" by: TwentyforSeven

&& nothing is better than Jesus Christ waking me up, to a beautiful day.

Who said I can't wear my converse with my dress? That's just me.

Fun Facts:

[1] I draw a heart on my left hand, every single day. I've been doing this since sixth grade. You would be number: 342789 to tell me that I should just get it as a tattoo.

[2] My normal hair color is dishwater blonde.

[3] I am torn between saying whether my favorite color is purple or pink & black.

[4] I still have a lot of my ex's clothes. Tough luck! They're mine now. >:)

[5] I don't regret any past relationships.

[6] I am virgin.

[7] My longest relationship is two years.

[8] Since I started college, I have never received a final grade lower than B!

[9] Glitter is essential for daily living.

[10] I will never runaway when life gets bad.

[11] & yes, #10 was a quote from Hannah Montana.

Your very own lullaby.

Well, I know the feeling of finding yourself stuck out on the ledge

and there ain't no healing from cutting yourself with the jagged edge.
I'm telling you that, it's never that bad.
Take it from someone who's been where you're at.
Laid out on the floor and you're not sure you can take this anymore.

So just give it one more try to a lullaby and turn this up on the radio
If you can hear me now, I'm reaching out to let you know that you're not alone
and if you can't tell, I'm scared as hell 'cause I can't get you on the telephone.
So just close your eyes.. Oh, honey here comes a lullaby.. your very own lullaby.

It was perfect, I never will forget.

I'm really in love with my life this year & I cannot wait for what the next year holds..



Looking back, I see there was the struggles- I lost my Grandpa in January. Even though I was not extremely close to him, it was heartbreaking to see my mom lose her father. I can't imagine life without my father & I know she didn't want to start imagine her life without hers.

Besides the loss, I gained another year of being with Tommy. We celebrated our two years of being together on January 4th, 2011. My longest relationship & a relationship that made me a better person, regardless of it later ending this year.

In February, I celebrated my last homecoming as a high school senior. It was one of my favorite nights. The next day, we got to hold a homecoming for Special Needs which was beyond fun and moving! I could cry tears of joy from watching their faces light up.

March was known for the never-ending sleepovers at Chelsea's and the month I got to see my favorite NHL player, Alexander Ovechkin play.

April was an emotional roller-coaster. This was the big month that Brianna and I became "sisters" & started hanging out almost every day. It also was the month that Tommy broke up with me. Regardless, I don't regret a moment or memory that I shared with him. We had a beautiful relationship & it came to a finish. Who knows what God has planned for the both of us?! I wish him the best in all he does & I know he feels the same for me.

This was also the month where I wanted a change. I chopped off 3-4 inches of my hair- where it sat on my shoulders and I joined the soccer team which was probably one of the best and most challenging experiences in high school even though I barely got to play because of grades and my new job. I got hired at a movie theater where I met my two new best friends, Ashley & Sam and so many more incredible people that I love so much! :)

May was my favorite month of all. It was my last Prom that I shared with Robert, who I had the time of my life with. He's a sweetheart & I am thankful for that memory with him.

I became extremely close with a boy named Josh ,who came along and changed everything. I am thankful for all our wild memories. I still think he's an incredible guy and has a lot going for him even though we have gone our separate ways because of school, work, etc.

The best part was Senior Trip! I am beyond thankful and happy that I went. I saw the beauty of the mountains, trails, scenery, etc. Everything else in life seemed so small when I was put in the middle of God's creation. Everything about that trip was beautiful. I did my best to capture all of it. I got to experience a rehabilitation center in Arizona where one of my close friends came out of & wanted to visit everyone. It was beyond moving and emotional. It made me open my eyes to how beautiful & fragile life is and how glad I am to have the supportive, Christian family that I was given. To experience this whole entire trip with my class, I had to ride an airplane for the first time. For those who are wondering, I survived and didn't throw up! And of course- we can't forget Barbra Streisand.

When I think of June, I think of freedom, being crazy & eighteen. I graduated from high school and got to go to Taylor Swift's concert the very next day. How cool is that?! I also saw Rihanna, B.O.B, Tim McGraw, The Band Perry & Katy Perry. It was also the one year anniversary of losing my best friend, Timmy. I promised him I would graduate from high school and I did- I even passed Biology! In memory of him, I got my lip pierced which he said I would never do because I'm too chicken. Well, Tim- I hope you're looking at me now!

July was a little stressful with my graduation party & getting everything ready for that. In the end, it was fun and a great time with family and friends who got to share that special day with me. I got to see Keith Urban, Jake Owen, Nicki Minaj & Britney Spears. I also went to Cedar Point with Bri & Ryan- where Bri learned to whip her hair back and forth.

I started my first semester of college & got a new kitten named Baby towards the end of August, but before that I went to visit my Grandma with my mom, two brothers & Bri- where my Uncle Scott, cousins- Christian & Emily also were. I'd have to say going to the beach and relaxing was the best part. Having all of us there was crazy, but enjoyable! I love them. :) My brother and I got to go to the Kenny Chesney & Zac Brown Band Concert for free because I won tickets off the radio. To say the least, that concert was definitely interesting.. but, Ryan and I had a good time. I also saw Lady Antebellum (my favorite band) with Melynn at the zoo! It was a weird location, but an awesome show as always. They never let me down with their music.

In September, I finally had my diploma in hand which I had worked so incredibly hard for. It was definately a weird change going from high school to college, but it's growing on me and I like where I'm at. I went to see Chris Brown and attempted to see Jason Aldean- both times were great and I had fun with the people that joined me. I also went to my first Michigan football game with Shane. It was overwhelming at first being in such a huge stadium, but it was a fun time that I shared with him even though we had to work afterwards.

October was my birthday month and favorite holiday- Halloween. I went to Cedar Point with Bri and Ryan for Halloweekends! We literally did every single Haunted House and I was dragged on the Dragster for the first time. I almost cried! I was so incredibly scared, but I told myself that I was fearless and did it anyway.

I had a great birthday and shared it with Ashley, Brianna, Ryan and Nick who put up with me all night long! Thank you guys :)

Later that week, we made pumpkins. I made two; both were a fail. Shane's pumpkin was probably the best.
The first thought that comes to mind when I think of November is Theory of a Deadman. Bri and I experienced our first VIP concert and got to meet the guys then watch the concert- fourth row from the stage. I loved the whole night. Plus who wouldn't want to meet Tyler?!

I went to the Michigan vs. Ohio State game with one of my friends & big U of M fan, Ryan. The whole game almost gave me two or three heart-attacks, but Michigan won and Ryan & I are now part of football history.

Demi Lovato was also this month. Seeing her on stage and being as strong as she is now was really great. It's cool to see artists share their experiences and come out stronger than before. She honestly was one of my favorite performers that I have seen.

After these two concerts, we went to Wisconsin to celebrate my second favorite holiday, Thanksgiving with my mom's side of the family. I was beyond happy to get out of the car and see my cousins. I love them all, despite the long distance we have between here and Wisconsin. Oh & we can't forget the Black Friday shopping that we did in record time this year- only one hour!!

And here we are in December, the most enchanting month of them all.

I finished my first semester of college with B's! On one of my exams I had a 203/200 and the other a 170/170- which I thank God for almost every day. Looking back at high school, where I didn't have the grades I wanted and looking at where I am now- is a miracle. I have been motivated and moving in the right direction thanks to those who helped me out my senior year. God is good!
After months of dating- Shane finally made me his girlfriend. I look forward to all the beautiful times ahead with him. He never fails to put a smile on my face. :)

The best friend turned 21 & I still remain the designated driver for her. Oh and Shane, Ashley, Ryan, Justin- the list goes on. Let's be honest though, I wouldn't have it any other way.

As the new year enters quickly, I hope for moments that "own the night". I want those moments that take your breath away, the ones you never forget, ones that you dive into fearlessly, ones where you look back and laugh or can't stop smiling about, the kind that you take pictures of and hang up for years in your room. I look forward to "owning" 2012 & hope that whoever is reading this does too. Don't let worries, distractions, fears and people get in your way of your special nights. Don't settle for anything less this 2012, than what you deserve.